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“The Loneliness I Feel” There is a loneliness that lives inside me, one that doesn’t leave when someone walks into the room. It sits quietly beneath every conversation, behind every smile I force onto my… 

Take It Easy October October 22, 2026 Tuesday was three months. Three months since I lost my mom. Three months have passed since the world stopped turning, but somehow still managed to keep going. I… 

I Just Need to Feel Human Again October 18, 2026 I’ve been in bed for days. It started a couple of weeks ago when I got sick, which threw me into a fibro flare, and… 

October 4, 2026 I’m due for a blog. It’s been a minute, so I figured I’d come on here and talk. One of the many things my mom’s Alzheimer’s taught me is that having absolutely… 

September 26, 2026 My mom died a little over two months ago. I’ve written about the grief. I’ve written about how quiet the house is. I’ve written about burying myself in my business because sometimes… 

Two Months, and I’m Still Angry September 21, 2026 My mom died two months ago yesterday. I didn’t write about it. I couldn’t. It was too painful, so instead I did what I seem to… 

September 18, 2026   It’s weird how something as simple as changing a contact in your phone can hit you right in the chest.   I got a new phone tonight. Nothing dramatic there. But… 

September 15, 2026 Today was actually a pretty decent day. Not perfect. Not magically fixed. But decent. I spent a good chunk of the day working around the office and shop, mostly taking product photos,… 

September 13, 2026 I haven’t written in a couple of days, so I guess today’s update is really a culmination of the last few. I’ve been trying to sit less with my grief and focus… 

September 11, 2026 I didn’t post yesterday. I’ll probably post again later tonight, but right now it’s a little after 3 in the morning and, once again, I cannot fucking sleep. I’m not even tired.…